Human?

What happened? Where did I go? It’s as if I retracted into my shell and never came back out. I am no longer the person I spent years trying to be. I have grown taller than the creatures I left behind, but I feel defeated by them still.

I avoid situations I used to relish in. Where did the confrontation and the conflict go? What happened to the confidence I gathered and used to build my fortress? I was impenetrable, a force to be reckoned with. It all changed. It always does. Change is Imminent.

The drama that consumed me is now reclaimed by younger generations. They will end up like me one day, with a past they would rather erase than recall. In life mistakes are constant and ever sprouting. As I grow, they grow. I just learn to handle inconvenience efficiently as I flourish.

I avoid my past like the plague, but like fear, the past follows you. I am in constant fear of my past and agonise over ways it can damage my future. But as much as I wish to erase my past, I do not regret it. This may sound cliché, but the past makes us who we are.

Through trial and error we become human. We are not born human, we are born experiments, we are moulded into creatures by outside influence and we learn to be human by coping with change. We learn to adapt and survive in the ever changing climate we are born into.

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